Let's Talk: How are you doing?
Really, though. How are you doing?
It’s hard to believe that a mere two weeks ago, things were completely different. We worked our normal jobs. We watched sports. We hung out with family and friends. We went about our daily lives as we watched a pandemic take over the world. I’ll admit it: I wasn’t that worried about it at first. I had lived through the swine flu ten years ago, which didn’t really feel like much of a pandemic at the time (at least, definitely not in comparison to COVID-19 today). Two weeks ago, I was anticipating the college gymnastics postseason and was -this close- to booking our flights for regionals that were scheduled for the first weekend in April. Little did I know that all of sports would be shut down for the rest of the season only three days later. (And for good reason, of course.)
It’s hard to believe that one week ago today, I was approved to work remotely, and it was my last day working in the office for the foreseeable future. The first COVID-19 case in Idaho had been confirmed on Friday the 13th. Everything changed in the matter of one week, and it’s inevitable that we would feel whiplash from that. I do, for sure. The last two weeks have felt like two of the longest weeks of my life so far. I actually have to look at the calendar to piece together the events because everything blends together. How is it still March?
I feel very fortunate that I currently don’t know of anyone personally that has been diagnosed with COVID-19, and I hope that is that case for you, too. I am very anxious about my friends and family members that are still at their workplaces, that are unable to work from home, that are working in hospitals. I am anxious whenever I leave the house; in the past week, I’ve only left the house to take a couple of walks and hikes with Korri and no one else. We saw my dad, step mom, and brother last weekend, but that will be the last get-together for a while. We shouldn’t have gone, and we almost didn’t go, but I felt like it was probably our last chance to see them before this blows over. I hope we all make it out of this pandemic alive.
I’m trying to not let my anxiety get the best of me. I run through every possible scenario in my mind almost every day even though I know I shouldn’t. I feel like I have to hold it together for both Korri and myself since his anxiety can make him spiral very quickly. We are both on edge and worried about the future. What will next week bring, or next month? With every brief cough, I’m convinced I have it. (Of course this is all coinciding with allergy season.) I dread running errands. I haven’t been to the store in over a week even though we could use more food. And we don’t have acetaminophen.
I am so very grateful that I still have my job and can work from home. I’ve been getting lots of lap snuggles from Rosie while working, which is the best! I am grateful that Korri still has his job, even though he does still have to go into the office most days. We are both okay…for now. My heart aches for everyone that has lost their jobs. I worry for my favorite local restaurants and small businesses. What will the world look like after this?
Blogging during a pandemic is certainly strange. It feels weird to talk about clothes, but it also feels normal? I always blog my real life, obviously, but real life is feeling heavy. We are living through a crazy time right now, and I appreciate reading more light-hearted, “normal” posts that help me take my mind off of everything. If you feel strongly about what you want me to post about, please let me know.
Thank you, as always, for reading. Please wash your hands and stay home if you can! ❤️xoxo